A Letter to Heaven

An update from September 21, 2014:

So its been about 3 years and a month since I last hugged your neck. Life is getting harder, I'm growing up and dang I would do anything to call you up and talk to you. You always knew what to say. Here's whats going on in my life that I wish you were here to see.

I'm at school to get my business degree, I love the thought of being in the business world. I'm a BeautiControl consultant. I know you would love it! I could show you all the products and give you foot rubs.

Now about Josh…… I'm just so frustrated that you never got to meet him. I know you would have loved him. He's everything I've ever wanted. Sometimes when I miss you & start to cry I tell him I wish he could have met you, but he always tell me "I did, I see her everyday in you." He's tall, muscular, has the most beautiful eyes. He has a beard, which looks good on him only when he keeps it trimmed. He looks like a grizzly man when he lets it go. I know you would have gotten on to him when it started getting out of hand. He could make you laugh so easy! I wish you could have met him. You would have loved him to pieces.

I got a cat, she's two years old and her name is Remi. I'm pretty sure I got my cat obsession from you! I act like Remi is my child. You would like her she gets kinda crazy sometimes and runs like a bullet through the house.

I just dyed my hair dark brown… It was quite the change. I know it would have been a shock to you, but just like everyone else we are getting used to it and it is starting to fade into a nice golden brown where my highlights were.

I stopped biting my nails!! Finally after all those years of putting pepper nail polish on my nails, its worked :)

Sometimes I just feel like you are on a very long trip and will be back in a few weeks… but I know thats not happening. I look at your picture everyday & I wear your fingerprint around my neck also. I have some of the best friends that you would love too! Tonight is one of those nights that I wish I could rewind to eating snacks and watching That So Raven with you and laughing til our stomachs hurt.

You had the biggest heart in the world. I miss you so much. Life just isn't the same without you here Me-Me. I don't want another holiday without you. It's always like something huge is missing, thats because it is. I know you wouldn't want me to be sad right now, but I know you get sad too. I know you wish you were back here with us. You added a spark to everyone's life that you touched. I'm so lucky to be your grand daughter.

I'll ALWAYS be your brown eyed angel. I'll see you soon.

I love you,
Tay